Sexuality Happens

Sometimes like can turn into love which can turn into a really good friendship, even though for whatever reason(s), you just cannot really be in a relationship anymore.

J was here this weekend. And you know, it didn’t go as planned. There was drama. Queer drama. Ex drama. Friend drama. Drama with me. Drama without me. Drinking drama. (although I did get to see Goddes and She live in concert, which was cool)

But even through all that…I am so glad that I made the decision to keep J in may life. All the drama was yesterday. Today, we just hung out…and it was wonderful. We talked…J put together a dresser that has been lingering in pieces and boxes around my house in my spinal tap attempt in October. We went for Gardenburgers at Red Robin (mine was a Banzai Burger!) together. We (shhh) watched Spiceworld On Demand together. It was nice. Really nice. You know, I haven’t gotten to just…hang out…veg out…chill out…with anyone. In a very long time.

And I think (I hope) that J got to see that I will never hate him or dislike him or anything silly like that for silly things that happen. Cause life happens…you know? Things happen. I trust him. He trusts me. We respect one another. These are things that make good friendships. As does knowing what someone means when they say “you know, those head scratchy things at mall?”

I’m just really glad that for once in my life, I took the higher road, and decided that even though it was harder, that it was worth staying friends with this ex (and that was all because of J). And J had to deal with me going through some anger and hurt…to took it all. And I thank him for sticking with me, because even now, he means so much to me.

And with that sappiness, it’s time for bed.