Sexuality Happens

As many of you know, I’ve had this really cute punk rock harness called the Syd (by Outlaw Leather) for the last year and a half. It’s gorgeous; red patent leather with giant safety pins holding the back together, and an assortment of pyramid studs accenting it.  I also have this really awesome strap-on compatible dildo called the Raquel, from Vixen, made out of an amazing silicone called Vixskin that warms up and feels almost like flesh.

However, I’ve never really been fucked by someone wearing a strap on. Nor have I have strapped it on, and fucked someone. J and I gave it the quick (2 minute?) college try (on a mattress on the floor of J’s college dorm room, no less), but we wound up laughing and it was awkward, and we went back to using the Pure Wand, the Hitachi, and our hands. Not so much.

So it’s always been a goal of mine.  K teased me one night at dinner.  I mentioned that I’d never been fucked with a strap on, and wanted to be, but that I’d probably be disappointed. I hadn’t liked penis-in-vagina intercourse.  I’ve only had it with one guy, multiple times though. And I found it to be completely boring. Like, thinking about how much time is left on my meter boring. Thinking through my final paper boring. Deciding how to re-organize my bookshelf boring.

He looked at me.  ”You know, that makes me want to fuck you right now with my cock. I’m pretty sure you’d like it. I want to show you because that makes me sad.” God damn it. You can’t SAY stuff like that. We’d just spent an hour or so in a fetish shop with him trying out different canes on me.  When we played in NYC at Submit, he’d been packing, and kept rubbing up against me, but didn’t fuck me with his cock.  And here we were, discussing this over guacamole.

“Well, you’d better hurry then. I’m leaving PA in 9 days.”

“There is plenty of time; you said I could come visit you in Colorado, right?” No fair. Simply no fucking fair.  I had fantasies about this for weeks.  But no dice.  And while he still plans to visit, my poor vagina still wanted to try it. And my hot harness and dildo were patiently waiting.

F didn’t have a lot of experience with sex toys, and the ones she did have sounded pretty negative…so I didn’t want to push it.  But one day, she had me bent over the bathroom counter, my plaid skirt pushed up around my waist, her hips pushing into mine, and I pushed back into her.  ”Not that I’m saying you should do anything you’re not comfortable with, but right now, I want nothing more in the world for you to strap on and fuck me.”  She laughed, and we had hot sex and went to bed.  Fast forward a week or two.  We were in my building’s pool, and she had me pressed against the wall, my legs wrapped around her. “God. I want you in me right now. I want you to fuck me…so fucking hard.  Did you know they make waterproof harnesses?”  This time, she seemed more interested.

“I really want to be inside of you right now too.”

Mmmm.  We talked about it a few more times, but nothing ever happened.  Until one day a week or so ago, she brought it up. I double checked with her to make sure she was actually ok with it (you know me and consent), and when I realized she was really excited, out came Syd and Raquel.  I helped her get into it and adjust it, and can I say that DAMN, she looked so fucking incredibly hot in it. I mean, she always looks amazing, but this was like a dream come true.

“Lay down on the bed – I want to suck your cock.”  And I did.  I’m a very good cocksucker, if I do say so myself (can I put that on a resume as a relevant skill?).  It was really hot, sucking her off, giving her a bit of a hand job, feeling her hips buck up against mine.  Finally, she told me to turn over so she could fuck me.

We ran into a bit of a lube snafu. I have both Eros Bodyglide and Aqua, which are by the same company, and the bottles are almost exactly the same. Bodyglide is silicone based, Aqua is (obviously) water based.  Silicone lube + silicone toys = BAD PLAN and melty.  Of course, we accidently grabbed Bodyglide, but luckily, I realized it quickly.

Swiss cheese toy problem averted, she had me on my back, and slowly slid in to me, constantly asking if I was ok (I knew there were so many reasons I liked this one).  We started slow, but eventually sped up.

It felt good.  No, really, it felt really fucking good. Nothing at ALL like penis-in-vagina intercourse (possibly because I actually genuinely like F might have something to do with it).  We tried one or two positions, and I moved my legs around to increase and decrease depth and the angle of penetration.  I reached over and grabbed my Lily vibrator, placing it on my clit between the two of us. God, it felt amazing. Her fucking me, the vibration on my clit, her face next to mine, kissing her as she fucked me.

So I am no longer a strap on virgin (well, not in some senses. I still would like to try fucking someone with a strap on, though I don’t think I’d be any good at it). It was far better than I expected. It was hot, sexy, sweaty, and it felt good. I think I’ll have to try lots more of it, you know, just to make sure.  Any takers?

-Essin’ Em