Pain Problems
I’ve been having a lot of high pain days lately. Between moving, and driving, and unpacking, everything hurts. I dislocated my knee the other night, and displaced my pelvis, straining my psoas and illiacus. Yowch. My days have mostly revolved around icing, pain killers, and then sleeping off both the drugs and the pain. I’ve been trying to get some PSO calls, but I need to work on advertising my NiteFlirt account a lot more. Also working on Pro-Domme stuff.
However, the pain is consistently interrupting my life. I can’t get out of the house to make me feel like I’m not stuck in this condo. I can’t find any jobs that I qualify for that I can apply for online, but between the pain and the pain killers, I can’t really go out and look for work (not to mention that I can’t really walk in and apply for a job at any place that requires me to stand on my feet/walk around/life heavy items for the work). The hot tub in the complex is broken, so I can’t use it to encourage my muscles to relax, and I’m out of muscle relaxers and almost out of pain killers, and cannot afford either the doctor or the prescriptions.
I feel like I’m disappointing Q by not being able to finish unpacking, by not finding a job, by not going out food shopping, etc while she’s working. She says otherwise, but it’s my own guilt. It’s making me irritable too – pain has a mega tendency to do that to people.
I know this will always be an issue in my life, that it will only get worse. I NEED to figure out how to manage it when it comes and stays for several days, instead of one night at a time. If the quantity of my posts slows down for it a bit, you know what I’m trying to figure out now; jobs, pain, and living in a new city. My apologies in advance. I’ll try to keep up with it, but just in case, fair warning!
-Essin’ Em
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oh gee, I’m sorry you are having so many physical challenges. I wish there was something folks could do to help you out better. I’m sure you’ve checked for local assistance with docs/meds for those who can’t afford it and I know how messy it is to make that work even when you do. May he Goddess of pain relief and relaxation bestow kindness upon you.
Gentle hugs,
Jerry
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Oh honey, I’m so sorry. I hope it gets better, that you can find a way to cope and get your life settled around it.
As the former partner (and who knows, maybe future partner – if she decides to come back to me) of a woman who suffered from chronic health issues and pain, I can tell you to please believe Q when she tells you she doesn’t mind. I speak from the other side and I know that for every thought I had that consisted of “what a PITA this condition is” there were about a million that went “wow, I’m so lucky/blessed/fortunate to have this amazing woman in my life”. Was I frustrated occasionally by her limits? I’d be a liar if I said no, but I chose HER. And with her came everything – good and bad. She made a similar choice and in the end, isn’t that all that matters? That we chose each other.
I hope for everyone’s sake that you can find a way to manage and deal with what’s being thrown at you right now. But please, revel in the love and support you are receiving from Q and don’t doubt her sincerity. It hurts when our partners don’t believe us – even if what we’re telling them is hard for them to hear. Unconditional love and support, that isn’t often found (or ditched), so if it’s there, hang onto it.
I’d give almost anything to have my woman back; even knowing what I face walking by her side, her light, her spirit, her soul, THAT’s what I crave and need in my life. Everything else is just to be dealt with.
:goodvibes: for feeling much better, very quickly.
Sorry to hear about your problems. All I can do is with you both good health and patience.